Walton Goggins acknowledged being in Thailand while filming the third season of “The White Lotus” was a full-circle moment.

It was one of the first stops the HBO series actor made 20 years ago in the aftermath of his wife’s death by suicide.

“The first island we were staying on,” Goggins told GQ, per E Online of his late wife Leanne Knight. “I realized, ‘I’ve been on this road before’. And then the next island we went to, I realized, ‘I’ve definitely been on this beach before. I know this boardwalk.’ And all of the things kept coming back.

“That’s where I was the very first day I came here, 20 years ago, and in so much f–king pain, man.”

As you can imagine, it was an uphill battle for the actor.

“It’s a very complicated story,” Goggins said. “Ultimately it was revealed the decision that she’d made. And yeah — I thought it was really unrecoverable for me. Life on the other side of that.

“And I spent the next three years looking for an excuse—not to end it, but certainly putting myself in situations that were questionable, not with drugs or anything like that, just life experiences and traveling. And I really went all over the world.”

He admits he hasn’t time to “unpack” it all.

“I thought, God, I wish I could hug that guy,” he said of his younger self. “I wish I could whisper in his ear, ‘You’re going to be OK. Life continues, and it continues for everybody if you can just hold on and lean into it and keep walking the walk that you’re walking, and keep looking for the answers.‘”

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