Wynonna Judd is ‘between hell and hallelujah’ on tour as she mourns mother’s death

Wynonna Judd is ‘between hell and hallelujah’ on tour as she mourns mother’s death

Touring after her mother’s death has been a bittersweet experience for Wynonna Judd.

In an interview that aired Monday on the “Today” show, the country star described herself as “between hell and hallelujah” as she travels the country, performing for fans and paying tribute to her mom and former duet partner, Naomi Judd.

“I’m writing a song called ‘Broken and Blessed,’ and … I’m somewhere between hell and hallelujah,” Wynonna said in an interview with Hoda Kotb. “And these shows are healing me, one show at a time. All my friends are coming, and it’s like the greatest party you throw yourself before the end. I feel like I’m doing a victory lap.”

Naomi died on April 30 at age 76 from a self-inflicted gunshot wound, shortly before the Judds were to be inducted into the Country Music Hall of Fame. Naomi and Wynonna also had announced their first tour together in more than a decade, billed as “The Judds: The Final Tour.”

As the Judds, Wynonna and Naomi released six successful albums, 1984-1990 and topped the charts with several radio hits. The two had an up-and-down relationship that was anchored by strong familial love, but also widely known to be marked by professional stress and disagreement.

In 2022, however, mother and daughter were ready to share a stage again, performing fan favorites such as “Mama He’s Crazy,” “Why Not Me,” “Love Is Alive” and “Rockin’ with the Rhythm of the Rain.” Naomi’s suicide changed all that, of course, and the tour plans were put on hold.

In the aftermath of Naomi’s death, Wynonna and her sister, actress Ashley Judd, said their mother’s suicide was prompted by mental illness.

“When we’re talking about mental illness, it’s very important to be clear and to make the distinction between our loved one and the disease,” Ashley said in a May interview with “Good Morning America.” “It’s very real, and it lies, it’s savage.”

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As part of her grieving process, Wynonna decided to continue with the shows she’d planned with her mother, performing as a solo artist and supported by a sisterhood of opening acts such as Martina McBride and Trish Yearwood. Her experience on the tour has been healing and heartbreaking, Wynonna said.

“I will cry and then go right into the next song, and I keep Kleenex right here at all times,” Wynonna said on “Today,” pointing to the front of her shirt. “I just sing and I cry, and I do the same thing, everyday where I’m at. … I’m fun and I’m real, and I’m broken and I’m blessed, and I’m sassy, you know, and I’m crying, and snotting through the songs. But thousands of people are showing up, to celebrate with me.”

Wynonna’s tour, which runs through February 2023, included an Oct. 15 stop at the Von Braun Center in Huntsville. Her interactions with fans has been healing and gratifying, Wynonna said, and more shows have been added in recent weeks.

“It’s incredibly overwhelming,” Wynonna said. “It’s like at a funeral when you have your entire family there and yet you wouldn’t have it any other way, even though it’s the hardest thing to do sometimes, is just to be present and do the next thing that you’re doing, and they’re there to support. Country music is a community.”

Professional help and guidance have helped her to cope with Naomi’s death, Wynonna said.

“I have a grief counselor and a life coach and I call them and I say, ‘I don’t understand why’ and they’ll say, ‘Ask yourself “What? What can you do?”’ she said. “They help shift me over to another lane and they help me to go, ‘I can do something, even though I feel hopeless right now.’ Instead of asking, ‘Why?’ ask, ‘What? What can I do right this minute to get to the next breath, to the next right thing?’”

Wynonna said her last words to her mother were, “I love you,” and she’s grateful for that.

“After someone dies, you start to remember the good,” Wynonna said. “You just do, right? You start to forgive and say, ‘I can let that go,’ because it’s just different now. I wake up every day and the glass is half full.”